~ the evolution of dreams ~
November 26, 2006,11:22 p.m.
bodily ills
- not from the consumption of kidneys masquerading as brains though. ah hana, i was feasting at a restaurant on bay street, and being a rather innocent new carnivore, i had naïve thoughts regarding the misnomer "sweetbreads". i pictured tiny toasted breads drizzled with a bit of honey and olive oil, perhaps some fresh black olives to boot, accompanied by flat pasta and pesto. instead i got brain-looking clumps and sweet tomato sauce.
please don't look at me askance, if i'd known the real origin of sweetbreads i would never have ordered the dish - in my new carniverous state, i am finding lines of politics i lacked completely as a self-appointed vegetarian (at the age of seven) who detested the texture of meat. i hate eating anything from baby animals. i will leave it at that, as i can feel my laptop misting over with tears already.
in other news
possible sappho hiatus
the beloved toni has come down with The Flu and a Complication: Ear Infection. as such sappho has assumed the role of nurse, a role filled equanimously by the aforementioned toni for many months prior as sappho's immune system tried to prove it did not exist. as such poor toni is taking Almost but not Quite Lethal Amounts of Tylenol™ and Antibiotics (10 Days). i am worried about his fever and hoping it will break in the next day or so. but i might not be able to update, for i am a Nurse and a Fundraiser at the same time, with a grant due this friday.
good things do come from complications
due to being under the weather, toni is watching lots of bbc television shows rented from bay st. video and by the end of the night - when his headache gets worse - i read to him. which means, to my delight, i am finally sharing diana gabaldon's stories with him. we are in chapter 4 of outlander, and i must say i am thoroughly enjoying reading this tale aloud. and toni, of course, is loving the story.
layout
dear tulip, thanks for the feedback. turned out i didn't have to do anything to the code itself - i published a post using the IE browser, and lo! the format and font worked. bizarre, but very gratifying. it looks pretty, no?
love,
sappho
please don't look at me askance, if i'd known the real origin of sweetbreads i would never have ordered the dish - in my new carniverous state, i am finding lines of politics i lacked completely as a self-appointed vegetarian (at the age of seven) who detested the texture of meat. i hate eating anything from baby animals. i will leave it at that, as i can feel my laptop misting over with tears already.
in other news
possible sappho hiatus
the beloved toni has come down with The Flu and a Complication: Ear Infection. as such sappho has assumed the role of nurse, a role filled equanimously by the aforementioned toni for many months prior as sappho's immune system tried to prove it did not exist. as such poor toni is taking Almost but not Quite Lethal Amounts of Tylenol™ and Antibiotics (10 Days). i am worried about his fever and hoping it will break in the next day or so. but i might not be able to update, for i am a Nurse and a Fundraiser at the same time, with a grant due this friday.
good things do come from complications
due to being under the weather, toni is watching lots of bbc television shows rented from bay st. video and by the end of the night - when his headache gets worse - i read to him. which means, to my delight, i am finally sharing diana gabaldon's stories with him. we are in chapter 4 of outlander, and i must say i am thoroughly enjoying reading this tale aloud. and toni, of course, is loving the story.
layout
dear tulip, thanks for the feedback. turned out i didn't have to do anything to the code itself - i published a post using the IE browser, and lo! the format and font worked. bizarre, but very gratifying. it looks pretty, no?
love,
sappho
October 19, 2006,11:35 a.m.
le moi, aujourd'hui
the perfect description of how i feel & where i want to be today.
my eyes are pressed into their sockets to remind me i'm tired.
my body lost its invisible exoskeleton somewhere last night.
because my exoskeleton is invisible i'm afraid i won't be able to find it.
unless i step on it first i suppose; but then it will be cracked.
i have far too much to do today, and very little time.
merde.
my eyes are pressed into their sockets to remind me i'm tired.
my body lost its invisible exoskeleton somewhere last night.
because my exoskeleton is invisible i'm afraid i won't be able to find it.
unless i step on it first i suppose; but then it will be cracked.
i have far too much to do today, and very little time.
merde.
October 18, 2006,5:56 p.m.
for some blessed zzzz's
This is what happens when you need a break and realize you are tired.
I was too tired to email them though.
I was too tired to email them though.
October 12, 2006,1:01 p.m.
o for air
alrighty i've had enough. i am starting to feel better - i.e. i'm not stuck in bed! i'm not constantly coughing! - but woe betide me if i expect to be able to draw a full breath.
oh ho, i have been just generally run down, so the doctors say - yet they still can't figure out what's wrong. well, they know some things. such as the fact that i have bronchitis, and that's why i can't breathe, because the little trees in my rib cage have lesions and are clogged. it seems i need an eavestrough company to clear out my air passageways.
but you see, i can't breathe - so i'm taking this stuff:
which stops me coughing so my lesions can heal (so i've been told) but it gives me the shakes and i still can't take a full breath.
so i'm tired and can't think straight a lot of the time. because there isn't any oxygen going to my brain. there hasn't been, for over a month.
all i really want is air, sometimes. a lot of air. and for the pressure in my throat and chest to go away. arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh!
how many brain cells do you think i've lost, not being able to breath fully for a month?
i think i've lost:
Labels: sick
May 15, 2006,7:57 p.m.
p.s.
i reread the post from yesterday and realized it sounds like i'm depressed, which i'm not. i'm just ill (and have been for a while without realizing it). i've also been dealing with some really crazy people at work on top of everything else, and that has been the straw that broke the camel's back, in a sense.
i guess what i am slowly realizing is i need some time. i love you guys and hope you know, that while i'm not the best person at keeping in touch, i really do care. i think of each of you every day. (even you, tom-cat). (ya. you, whiskers.) when i'm back on track i'll give each of you a call.
promise.
~ s.
i guess what i am slowly realizing is i need some time. i love you guys and hope you know, that while i'm not the best person at keeping in touch, i really do care. i think of each of you every day. (even you, tom-cat). (ya. you, whiskers.) when i'm back on track i'll give each of you a call.
promise.
~ s.
Labels: sick
May 13, 2006,7:09 p.m.
listening.
listening to stabilo's album, happiness & disaster (title track)
we are making striploin for dinner; yellowtail shiraz to accompany (as well as for the marinade ;)
i realized earlier this week that i've been pretending things are ok without realizing it. the realization occurred when i crumpled at work (a donor called and was rude to me - a common occurrence at my old job, not at my current place of employment) and i completely broke down. cried. at work. a very unusual kind of behaviour for my personality - i am a crier in private, in safe surroundings. and i certainly do not feel comfortable or safe or private at work, so it was triply odd.
in any case - the lack of updates are due to me not being well, the crying - well, i've been dealing with a lot, and am tired, and have to keep going at a point where i guess my body, my brain, and my emotions are simply not up to it. which is a point i am absolutely furious to be at - i am the kind of person who survives, who is sensible, who keeps going, and can deal with things. or so i thought.
in any case, i will be fine - but a break is in due order, so you may not hear from me for a while, but don't worry (if you do worry). if there is anything i am resolved about, it is to be all right eventually, no matter what happens.
ciao.
~ sappho
we are making striploin for dinner; yellowtail shiraz to accompany (as well as for the marinade ;)
i realized earlier this week that i've been pretending things are ok without realizing it. the realization occurred when i crumpled at work (a donor called and was rude to me - a common occurrence at my old job, not at my current place of employment) and i completely broke down. cried. at work. a very unusual kind of behaviour for my personality - i am a crier in private, in safe surroundings. and i certainly do not feel comfortable or safe or private at work, so it was triply odd.
in any case - the lack of updates are due to me not being well, the crying - well, i've been dealing with a lot, and am tired, and have to keep going at a point where i guess my body, my brain, and my emotions are simply not up to it. which is a point i am absolutely furious to be at - i am the kind of person who survives, who is sensible, who keeps going, and can deal with things. or so i thought.
in any case, i will be fine - but a break is in due order, so you may not hear from me for a while, but don't worry (if you do worry). if there is anything i am resolved about, it is to be all right eventually, no matter what happens.
ciao.
~ sappho
Labels: sick
April 19, 2005,8:32 a.m.
ugh
i've got a cold. stuffy nose, headache, achy bones. the worst part is the throat though. yesterday it was really sore, but today it's just constantly dry - the kind of dry that makes you want to retch, because you can't really swallow. both my munchkins had it, as well as my front of house manager when i worked on saturday night, so i think i was doomed. dooooooooomed.
when i woke up this morning i walked into the kitchen and looked up at the ceiling. there was a fly and a spider sitting directly across from each other, with their backs turned to each other. i eventually thought this was kind of funny (although my initial reaction was tension, because i am terrified of spiders). maybe it was a reunion between the spider and the fly. can you imagine??
[fly] "gasp!"
[spider] looks menacingly
[fly] "hey you [censored] eight-legged monster. how goes?"
[spider] coolly: "long time no see, bug-eyes..."
sounds like the beginning of the greatest chase sequence in film history.
when i woke up this morning i walked into the kitchen and looked up at the ceiling. there was a fly and a spider sitting directly across from each other, with their backs turned to each other. i eventually thought this was kind of funny (although my initial reaction was tension, because i am terrified of spiders). maybe it was a reunion between the spider and the fly. can you imagine??
[fly] "gasp!"
[spider] looks menacingly
[fly] "hey you [censored] eight-legged monster. how goes?"
[spider] coolly: "long time no see, bug-eyes..."
sounds like the beginning of the greatest chase sequence in film history.
Labels: sick
January 27, 2005,2:33 p.m.
fishy face
i've been playing around with the programs blogger makes available for posting photos and...well...as you can see i've managed to get a picture up of me. *blush* it's one that c took at talibah's birthday dinner party @ le commensal, and i'm being very silly in it. but that's me. silly.
i'm down and out with a cold today so my brain feels rather non-functional, as does the rest of me. my nose keeps throbbing no matter how much tylenol i take (don't worry, i'm not overdoing it. i am disgustingly sensible. most of the time.)
anyhow hopefully i will get some more photos up soon. :P
i'm down and out with a cold today so my brain feels rather non-functional, as does the rest of me. my nose keeps throbbing no matter how much tylenol i take (don't worry, i'm not overdoing it. i am disgustingly sensible. most of the time.)
anyhow hopefully i will get some more photos up soon. :P
Labels: art, photography, sick