~ the evolution of dreams ~
May 15, 2006,7:57 p.m.
p.s.
i reread the post from yesterday and realized it sounds like i'm depressed, which i'm not. i'm just ill (and have been for a while without realizing it). i've also been dealing with some really crazy people at work on top of everything else, and that has been the straw that broke the camel's back, in a sense.
i guess what i am slowly realizing is i need some time. i love you guys and hope you know, that while i'm not the best person at keeping in touch, i really do care. i think of each of you every day. (even you, tom-cat). (ya. you, whiskers.) when i'm back on track i'll give each of you a call.
promise.
~ s.
i guess what i am slowly realizing is i need some time. i love you guys and hope you know, that while i'm not the best person at keeping in touch, i really do care. i think of each of you every day. (even you, tom-cat). (ya. you, whiskers.) when i'm back on track i'll give each of you a call.
promise.
~ s.
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May 13, 2006,7:09 p.m.
listening.
listening to stabilo's album, happiness & disaster (title track)
we are making striploin for dinner; yellowtail shiraz to accompany (as well as for the marinade ;)
i realized earlier this week that i've been pretending things are ok without realizing it. the realization occurred when i crumpled at work (a donor called and was rude to me - a common occurrence at my old job, not at my current place of employment) and i completely broke down. cried. at work. a very unusual kind of behaviour for my personality - i am a crier in private, in safe surroundings. and i certainly do not feel comfortable or safe or private at work, so it was triply odd.
in any case - the lack of updates are due to me not being well, the crying - well, i've been dealing with a lot, and am tired, and have to keep going at a point where i guess my body, my brain, and my emotions are simply not up to it. which is a point i am absolutely furious to be at - i am the kind of person who survives, who is sensible, who keeps going, and can deal with things. or so i thought.
in any case, i will be fine - but a break is in due order, so you may not hear from me for a while, but don't worry (if you do worry). if there is anything i am resolved about, it is to be all right eventually, no matter what happens.
ciao.
~ sappho
we are making striploin for dinner; yellowtail shiraz to accompany (as well as for the marinade ;)
i realized earlier this week that i've been pretending things are ok without realizing it. the realization occurred when i crumpled at work (a donor called and was rude to me - a common occurrence at my old job, not at my current place of employment) and i completely broke down. cried. at work. a very unusual kind of behaviour for my personality - i am a crier in private, in safe surroundings. and i certainly do not feel comfortable or safe or private at work, so it was triply odd.
in any case - the lack of updates are due to me not being well, the crying - well, i've been dealing with a lot, and am tired, and have to keep going at a point where i guess my body, my brain, and my emotions are simply not up to it. which is a point i am absolutely furious to be at - i am the kind of person who survives, who is sensible, who keeps going, and can deal with things. or so i thought.
in any case, i will be fine - but a break is in due order, so you may not hear from me for a while, but don't worry (if you do worry). if there is anything i am resolved about, it is to be all right eventually, no matter what happens.
ciao.
~ sappho
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