sometimes, i wish i could go somewhere far away, just for a while. i really over-committed myself this year, by accident really - when i accepted the president position for the dance coalition i wasn't in the full-time work program i'm in now, and i didn't have such crappy pay that i had to supplement my living expenses with a part-time job. i've been through a bit of a rough time in my personal life over the last little while, although it definitely hasn't been as rough as it could have been (or has been for others that i know and love well) - but i am scared, a little bit, that i am slowly breaking down. i know i'll be fine. i'm just scared of the toll this is taking on my relationships, familial in particular. but i'll work through that, i guess. you always do. survive.

i want to thank all of my dear, dear friends who are so forgiving, and welcoming, to me, when i haven't been a very good friend over the past two years. i regret not keeping in touch as much as i should have, and i regret what i have missed in your lives as a result. but thank you for always being there for me, even when it seems like i've been a stranger.

~ sappho

Labels: tired, transitions, winding paths unseen