it’s been a long four days. only four days, but time stretched like an elastic so every second took an eon. i am still thin, solid, present in 2006, a little tense, a little happy. it surprises me that i’m still here – still so alive. stuff just happens around me – to me, is probably a more correct description. i have little choice in the matter! i am glad of it. of things, of life, happening.

it’s black as onyx out. the windows are reflecting pinpoints of light – like little breathing spectres, each representing a whole life. like the echoes of stars we witness in the sky.

newness
i got a new job today. i will keep my fundraising work going – i haven’t forgotten about the humane society plan i have doing a little jig in the back of my head – but there will be a new haunt for the daylight hours of sappho. it’s a lovely tiny little firm, just across the street. i am ecstatic to have the position. it suits my mind to a t. and taking dooce’s advice to heart, that’s all you’re going to hear about it on here.

painting
for a while i stopped. i just stopped. stopped painting, stopped writing, stopped dancing. i don’t like remembering that time. i painted my first canvas in over a year today. it’s not finished – just the first wash done. it’s from memory – a painting of the adriatic sea. i’ve been forced to start writing again too – which is, i think, turning out to be a good thing. i’ve been scared of far too many things for far too long, and i am happy that i am brave enough to start being creative again. i’m starting to cry so i think that’s all i can write about for now.

don’t worry though.

they’re tears of happiness.

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